I'm so excited. I'm going to be going home soon for Thanksgiving. We have break starting today at 1:00 or 1:30. I'm really excited. And the situation between me and Jason is going well now. So now I'm happy about that. Things are fine between us now. Just no more e-mailing him, unless I really need to. Maybe over Christmas break, since that's longer. Well, got to make this short. I'm leaving soon.

Current Mood: excited

Well, I finally heard from Jason. And you know what? He doesn't understand me at all! I mean, he is only 17! And he's way into his studies. I do understand him though. But I wish he would understand me! He's just so...I don't know! He's just crazy! I know. I should just drop him and move on, but it's going to be so hard for me. I really really really like him a lot. He really never has had a girlfriend before. This is all new to him. He's still so young, but very intelligent. I wish he could understand me. I want him to understand me. No. I do want him to understand me. He doesn't understand that I do want to get to know him better and learn more about what he's like. I've heard from one of his old buddies that he's a very nice guy and smart. I already knew that he's smart. I mean, he was valedictorian for his senior class. That's amazing. I wish I were that smart. My friend, Jenny, was valedictorian for our class. But she's different from Jason. Jason puts his academics above everything else. Jenny isn't anything like that. Yes, she studies a lot and does her homework a lot, but she also had time for fun. She's definitely an organized person and obviously very smart. She liked to have fun with her friends. She's always gotten on the straight A honor roll. She was a very good student. I really admire that in her. I bet Jason was on the straight A honor roll, too. He's a very smart guy. Me, on the other hand, I was okay. I wish I was better. I actually was better in high school than here. Because I didn't have the same classes every day like in high school. I have a lot more free time here in college and I don't use it very wisely. I didn't really use my free time in high school very wisely too. But quite often I did. I need to get a roll on here. I'm just wasting up my time with guys. I need to focus on my academics here. They are more important than guys anyway. It sounds so much beter when you write it. It's way harder to do it, but I just need to push myself more. Well, I guess that's it for now.

Current Mood: stressed